Cried myself to sleep again last night. Really could not accept what I saw earlier on. Dropped him another mail before I went to bed.
He called me before that. I was not too appy already then. Talked to him in a heck-care tone. On the verge on quarrelling already. He called me again after he checked his mail. Talked to me in a very nice manner. Thank God. If he ever shouted at me, that would be it. Like what Elaine said, if he shouted at me, is it worth for me to carry on this relationship??? Fancy him shouting at me over another GIRL. What he said really make me think that I am rather brainless.
I have access to his emails. If he ever wanted to hide something from me, he would delete the mail after reading and replying. Right?
Messaged me slightly before 8pm today. Said he will come and meet me. We just walked silently till Raffles Place. With occassional small talk and small fight. Said he knew I never trust him. HE HIT THE BULL'S EYE!!! Feel so bad now. I am just like that. Forever having so little trust in people. All because I LACK CONFIDENCE IN MYSELF.
Came to Clifford Pier. Stood there. Asked me if I had anything to ask him. I just could not speak then. After a while, we were fine again. We then continued our walk to Amara, with our usual talk, laugh and his usual bullying. Planned to meet again tomorrow morning. Just before he go for his interview.
However, he just called. Asked me not to meet him tomorrow. He will have a rest in Amara 1st before going for the interview. Fine. Shall have my beauty sleep then. Maybe will ask him out for shopping next weekend. He have yet to buy his Deepvali clothings!!!
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
4:32 PM